New Years obligatory post

I feel a little even typing a New Years resolution type post. I haven't made resolutions in a long time.. well, not out loud any way. They're always the same.. Lose weight, be more intentional, work out more, spend more time with Jesus. Those are all good resolutions but guess what.. I, like everyone else, quit. I'm a quitter.

Instead of resolutions, the past few years we have done vision boards. They aren't necessarily spiritual, however ours is heavily spiritual. We pray for wisdom from the Lord and write down what He reveals to us. As we pray and believe for these things, we see the faithfulness of God revealed as we check them off.

Of course, if I were to make a resolution it would be to get on track and be healthy. More than that, to be consistent and intentional with the things I know I have to do to be well. I'm so sick of giving up. I need to give up on something though..

I give up on fear. It's exhausting. I'm tired of worrying about everything I eat. Sugar is dangerous and will make you have cancer. Carbs are bad for your heart. Bacon will kill you. I don't eat bacon so I don't care about that.. but you get the point. Sugar and processed foods are bad for you, no doubt about it... and I definitely will work on eliminating them as much as possible, but the guilt that comes with eating any little bit has got to go. The enemy has got to go. He knows the way to make me fearful and I'm done giving in.

I don't need to watch any more documentaries. I don't need to be reminded of how bad certain things are and how much I need good food. I need to give it away and place blame where it's due. Sure, I put the fork in my own mouth but the guilt and the condemnation comes from the enemy and he has got to flee.

So this year is about focus, consistency and being intentional. My whole life, whenever something has been too difficult or involved, I quit.. but I'm done. I'm done placing the blame on my family or circumstances too. Praying specific prayers will help accomplish this task. It won't be easy but it will be worth it.