I know I've said this a lot.. but I've ALWAYS wanted to be a mom.. I don't remember exactly when it happened but it feels like all my life.
When I was little I would walk around with tupperware bowls under my shirt. My mom had my two younger brothers when I was just old enough to help.. Sometimes I would act like they were my babies.
When I was older I would write letters to my future children. I would even buy them gifts to put in my hope chest. I would pray for them and hope for them. I had names picked out from the time I was 10.. one of them is still the name I want for a girl.
This morning was the Mother's Day service at church.. It was very emotional. I've received so many texts, comments and messages on FB and twitter about our announcement and Mother's Day wishes.. it truly warms my heart and means so much. I feel so thankful and just utter praise for the One who has answered our hearts desire.
It still doesn't feel real. I have the sonogram hanging on our refrigerator.. that and my ever changing body and hormones tells me it's true.. but I keep waiting for my bubble to burst. The DR told us on Friday that we should announce it.. even though most people say wait till 12 weeks, he said although it's not impossible, there's a small 3-5% chance of a miscarriage. The hemorrhage is almost completely dissolved. He said if he didn't know if was there, he would have completely looked over it as nothing. HALLELUJAH!!
My heart still aches for my friends without babies. I feel like I've been there for so long.. If you read this, PLEASE join me in praying for them.
So many of the comments say something about how awesome I'll be as a mom. I sure hope so. I really believe it's what I was designed for.. the only thing I've ever truly wanted to be is a mom.. Surely I was made to be a great one. :-)
So, Happy Mother's Day.. I really hope every mom feels loved and valued today and every day.
So happy for you, friend! I think that by blogging about your experiences and emotions, you are helping those who haven't had the blessing of babies yet. Keep it up - you are an encouragement! And you will definitely be an incredible mom!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThis made my heart happy. I remember in high school when you would wear that huge belly for class or take those fake crying babies home. NO ONE is more prepared for motherhood than you, my friend! I'm so excited for you!
ReplyDeleteI remember when you & Chelsea brought the crying babies home from school. Your baby cried & cried. If I remember correctly you ended up putting the doll out ion the garage or in the trunk. It was sooo funny.... But, one thing I do know, You & Levi will make the best parents in the world!! I love my baby girl!!!
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