I Quit Living in Fear

On my trip to OKC this weekend, I had the opportunity to go to LifeChurch.tv and hear a message from one of my favorite speakers, Craig Groeschel. His message couldn’t have been more relevant to what I was going through that weekend and the weeks leading up to it. It’s getting to where I don’t even want to get out. Every baby and pregnant lady I see makes me more bitter. It’s been 6 months and still nothing. I held strong to my belief that God has a plan and it’s way better than I can imagine, but the longer it takes, the more I start to waiver.

Craig’s message was appropriately titled “I Quit Living in Fear”.

First we were to check which fears apply to us.

   X      Fear of Loss

   X      Fear of Failure

   X      Fear of Rejection

   X      Fear of the Unknown

Being honest with myself, I had to check each area. Now I thought I knew all of the truths about fear. I’ve had 2 Timothy 1:7 memorized since Junior High. “For God has not given us the spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind”.

Craig divinely taught about even more truths regarding fear.

-       Fear is faith in the wrong things

-       Fear is placing faith in the “What if’s”

Example: Moses answered, “What if they do not believe me or liste to me and say, ‘ The Lord did not appear to you’?” Exodus 4:1

  

-       People rarely think What if something good happens?

Why do your “What if’s” matter?

1. What you fear reveals what you value the most.
2. What you fear reveals where you trust God the least.  OUCH!!

A big part for me was this next part. We were asked to take the next step and write out the area (s) of our life that we didn’t trust God with.

** I’m not trusting God with: My circumstances (Job for Levi, a baby) , My future

Facing the “What if’s” of Fear

• Acknowledge your fear and choose to trust God.

My slanderers pursue me all day long; many are attacking me in their pride. When I am afraid I will trust in you. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me? Psalm 56:2-4

-       David was literally being hunted down by Saul’s men and yet he decided to trust God.

    

It was so much easier to trust God at first. For one, I could hear him telling me to, and hearing from God was such a comfort to me. But that’s when I thought I wouldn’t be waiting very long. Now that I’m getting impatient and trusting God is becoming more critical, the fear is starting to creep back in.

Now I must admit, I have gotten LOTS better at trusting and letting go of fear. About 6 months ago, I would have had to put about three X’s in each box to show how much I feared everything. Regardless, this message was a slap in the face. It’s no surprise that my fear reveals what I value the most. Levi needs to get a job back home ASAP and we want a baby, like yesterday.. BUT it was a huge revelation to think that after all we’ve been through that these things we want the most are the areas I trust God with the least. If I believe He is our provider, I must surrender all. ALL! Not just the little things and hold on to the things that are really dear to me. Unlike before, I realize this will take some time.

Seek God until he takes away your fears.

                I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.

            Psalm 34:4

I must seek God until he takes away my fears. Everyday I have to give these fears to Him. No matter how long it takes..

While I’m revealing, I’m going to lay everything out on the table

My biggest fears:

Jesus will return before I have a baby.

It will take more than 2 more months to get pregnant. (every month that passes it gets harder)

Levi won’t get a job back in Conway.