Faithful

In my journey to get to know God, I started in a few different places... Levi and I both started a reading plan from YouVersion.. I can access it on my phone or computer and there are so many different kinds, but this one works best for me. I've tried to start 1-year reading plans before but never made it past a week. This one starts in Genesis, and every day I read one chapter of Genesis, Proverbs, Psalms and Acts. I liked this because I needed to learn about the beginning of life and the beginning of the church. Every day there is a Proverb and Psalm no matter what the other books are and so far I really like that too! Right now I have read 25% of the Bible.. I am so excited!

As exciting as it's been, it's been hard... I don't hear Him as clearly as I did before. While I was in the midst of so much grief, I could hear him so clearly.. like never before. I could feel his presence with me and it was the most amazing feeling.

As I've said, I know he's closer to the hurting and now he's teaching me about obedience and being faithful, but I want more. I know now that I need more of Him.

There's distance in the air and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms' round about me and blow with all my might
I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here
But the comfort of you near is what I long for


When I can't feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear you, I know you still hear everyword I pray
And I want you more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for you maybe I'm made more faithful

-"Faithful" by Brooke Fraser

I'm still so thankful that he gave me the opportunity to be pregnant. Even when I was lying on the ground by the toilet every morning, I was still so thankful to "feel"pregnant. Some women complain throughout their entire pregnancies.. They complain about their "accidents" they complain about being tired and sore. Their head hurts, their back hurts, their inconvenienced in one way or another... I've never been more thankful to be "inconvenienced".

In high school, my Parenting teacher and inspiration for teaching FACS, Mrs. Bomar, once told me that I'll be the happiest pregnant person. She was right! I truly miss feeling pregnant. It's hard to explain but I'm sure there are women reading this that know what I'm talking about. One of the reasons I think I got depressed after the hormones left was because the feeling of being pregnant went with them. Even though it didn't end the way I wanted to, I am still so thankful that God gave me the opportunity.. I've never felt more blessed than I did when I felt He was blessing me with a life He created.